Hello my lovely.
You know that I strive to be positive at all times here on this little blog. That hasn’t changed. But as I wrote in my personal maifesto earlier this week, it’s also alright to admit when I’m having a hard time with something.
I had a hard time feeling grateful this week, guys. I am feeling a lot of other, opposite of grateful feelings. Feelings that have shaken me, that have scared me. I’m confronting what feels like a bunch of demons right now, from a bunch of different life segments. Everything feels highly out of balance & deeply uncomfortable.
All this to say that it’s a slightly shorter love-list this week. I had a really difficult time coming up with ten things every day that I felt grateful for. Which I know is horrible, & totally a first-world problem.
But I also wanted to be honest with you, my friend. So here it is, a shorter gratitude list than normal, but still a list of things I loved this week nonetheless.
Getting flirted with. What person doesn’t like a little romantic energy thrown their way? Whenever I’m feeling particularly like I need it, I just go to the Quickie around the corner from my house. BAM. Instant flirtation & mood boost.
Working on my play. It’s a slow process, & I’ve given myself a year to write it, but the fact that the window above my desk is covered in post-its makes me happy.
The free library at my work! It’s one of those take-some-books-leave-some-books deals. I love it.
Caring for my orchids. There are two minature phaels & one full-sized one which are just loving my new place.
Being with myself. I’m fun company. Who knew?!
Working a lot. I am nearing the end of a 12-days-straight stint, & although I am truly exhausted (I really am going to sleep all weekend!), it’s also really rewarding to know that I’m helping an office run smoothly. It helps to know that I’m good at my job.
The Walrus. I’ve been reading snippets on the bus & on my balcony when I get some time to myself. It’s wonderful. I feel smarter already!
Going for the first few runs of the year. Actually, the first few runs in about four years! I had some injuries that have finally healed, & I’m back out on the running path. Mostly thanks to the Zombies Run! app. Best $1.99 I ever spent.
Speaking of which, being proactive about my health. I made a doctor’s appointment I’ve been dreading.
Taking a million photos with my phone. It’s true: the best camera is the one you have with you!
Knowing my own power. Oozing confidence.
Other little things which made me smile…
Armloads of jangly bracelets * Sparkly manicures * Books on meditation * Writing a manifesto * Positive feedback * Tulips * Making people smile with silly little things * Connections * Planning a solo weekend getaway * Feeling my feelings * 8Tracks! * Building new good habits * When my friends favourite my tweets * Vega Smoothie in Mango is the most delicious protein powder I have every had in my life! * Patio season * Exploring my career options * Loving myself * Making mix tapes * Wearing sunscreen * Wearing sundresses * Paying attention to the details * Being valuable * Reading on the balcony * Rolling my eyes for comic effect
What about you, darling? What are you grateful for this week? I’d love to hear about it in the comments!